Putting the one in alone
Everyone who has been through a heartbreak knows the overwhelming feeling of being completely and utterly alone. Even though you might have family and friends who care and support you, it just doesn’t feel the same. The gut-wrenching loneliness that accompanies a break-up can be devastating. It completely shakes you to your core and makes you question everything about yourself. The pain that is in your heart can be debilitating and the loneliness that you experience feels like the end-all.
Loneliness is what drives us to our knees and makes us question whether this life is even worth living in the end. It is what you feel deep down, even when you are with your best friends. It is the pain behind the smile that no one can see. It is the crushing feeling that no one understands your pain and that no one can help you right now.
That is exactly the island of desolation that I found myself inhabiting during that time.
There was no console or comfort for my broken soul. It was an almost complete acceptance of the face that happiness was a distant memory that may never be reality again. Once again I found myself in church. Surrounded by people yet feeling completely isolated. Then something amazing happened that shook my views once again.
A faint whisper changed everything
Everyone was taking communion and as the worship team sang “Blessings” by Laura Story, there were tears streaming down my face and to this day, I cannot explain this. To those who have had similar experiences, I can only describe it as a something that you know is from God. It is a whisper, the faintest thing, yet more concrete and powerful than many things in this world.
All I heard was, “I know what it feels like to be alone”. I saw this image of Jesus on the cross – Matthew 27:46 About three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eli, Eli,[a] lema sabachthani?” (which means “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”). Jesus knew loneliness and understands it better than anyone else. I felt an amazing sense of comfort knowing that Jesus isn’t far away in this pain, but is closer than anyone else. He loves me so much, and He understands. He understands the pain, the loneliness and above all else He loves me. He will never leave me nor forsake me. With God by my side, I am never alone.
For anyone who has felt that loneliness, I would highly recommend running to God. It may not be easy and it will definitely be a journey. It is not a quick-fix. But you will gain a love that is above all else. You will gain a true love that understands your pain and sorrow, that knows your faults and still loves you unconditionally. A love that will never break your heart of leave you alone.
“He was despised and rejected by men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief.” (Isaiah 53:3)
– Blessings by Laura Story
– Man of Sorrows by Hillsong
– When Mercy Found Me by Rhett Walker Band