After the break-up, I was convinced of one thing. And that was that I completely messed up my entire life. That nothing will ever be good again and that the “perfect guy” that God planned for me, I had driven away. I was convinced that my life was over because that was it. There was no plan B. There was no alternative. That was the end of life itself because if he was sent from God, and I messed it up, I wasn’t ever going to get that again. I was convinced I got one chance, and I screwed it up severely.
Then I found an amazing quote:
How beautiful? And how applicable?
I found amazing comfort in knowing that maybe this wasn’t the be-all and end-all of my life. That my life wouldn’t be defined by my past mistakes. That I could still find happiness in spite of the mistakes I made. The more I thought about it, I realised that yes, I did make big mistakes, but maybe my ex did too.
I remember the one night that I was crying into my brother’s shoulder and asking him why would this happen if he was God’s plan for my life. And my brother’s words of wisdom still remain as true today as it did back then. “God gives us the freedom to choose and just because he made a choice, doesn’t mean it was necessarily the right one”. Through time and a lot of reflection I know that the choices both of us made weren’t driven by God’s will.
So to anyone struggling, thinking that their life is over because of a mistake that you made. Remember this. God is so much more powerful than your mistakes. That is the very reason Jesus died for us, so that we could experience the perfect love and forgiveness of God.
There is nothing, no situation that God can’t turn around. Never doubt how powerful God is.
Song of the day: You Redeem by Aaron Shust