It has been more than a year since that life-changing moment. In this year, amazing things have happened, I look at my year and can only describe it as a whirlwind adventure. Filled with new experiences, friends, places, and God’s love. I am awestruck to look back at where I was a year ago, and how God has changed my circumstances and just did a 180 with my life.
Even though I am so happy with my current circumstances, I still struggle. Like any person, I am filled with doubts at times whether I will meet someone who will love me. Just because you are happy, doesn’t mean you want to be single forever. And while I was struggling with this, I kept praying asking God to just give me and answer. Some form of guidance as to what I need to do regarding this.
At the same time I was still struggling with dealing with my ex, as I got a phone call every now and then from him. Further adding to the pain and confusion. I was so unsure as to whether this meant something more or if he was just confused himself. Time upon time, in prayer I got the same answer from God…”Wait.”
Nothing more, nothing less.
I honestly didn’t understand this answer at first. Firstly I am one of the most impatient people you will ever meet and waiting felt like the worst request ever. Yet, I told myself it was what needed to be done. Although looking back at it now, I did it with a heavy heart. I didn’t want to wait. Waiting was challenging and it took a lot. And maybe I felt like it was unnecessary.
Then one day while praying, God spoke into this doubt that I had about waiting.
“Waiting means that you are waiting for something“.
Waiting isn’t God being mean or spiteful. Waiting means something. Although we may not know why God is making us wait, waiting means that whatever God has in store, it is worth waiting for. And by being impatient or trying to force it, it might put you in a situation that God was protecting you from in the first place.
Waiting is about trust
Waiting means that you need to trust God wholeheartedly. It is about resting soundly in the knowledge that God has a plan and listening to His gentle voice when He steers you in the right direction. It is about trusting God and not falling victim to your own doubt and insecurity.
So while waiting is hard, and no one understands it better than me.
Waiting has turned from being a burden to a blessing. Waiting has started to feel special. It means something amazing is on its way prepared by God. And what is better than that?
Psalm 130:5 – I wait for the LORD, my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.